I lost my phone on the bus coming home from work a couple of days ago, so I have to use my grandma’s phone, which also happens to be my old phone from 4 years ago.

1.3 megapixel camera, no QWERTY keyboard, no touchscreen, retractable antenna.

Turns out it still had all of the old photos I took on it.

Pictures from my first youth camp, friend with fake boner, friend in sexy policeman costume, my godsister with the girl I never thought in a million years would fall in love with, a tongue(?) on the floor, cute toys, a fake Chris Brown.

The last photo was the smiling face of my ex-girlfriend.  It was the trippiest feeling.  It didn’t really make me sad, but it made me reminisce.

I knew it was over a long time ago, so I was just able to look back.

I don’t want to have that feeling with you, kid.  Yeah, I want to look at a picture of you and remember all of the fun and hard and stupid times we had, but I also want to look at one knowing that we would have more.

But is this something you really want?  Am I someone you really want?  Will you care for someone whose career will increase our proximity away from each other at seemingly random intervals?  Are you really willing to care for my heart which has broken yours many times before?  

Will we help each other grow in Christ?

All I really know from thinking about these things is this: My love for you is unconditional, and if we take this leap, I will treat you with the affection and respect a daughter of God deserves.

“in my prayers at all times; and I pray that now at last by God’s will the way may be opened for me to come to you. I long to see you so that I may impart to you some spiritual gift to make you strong— that is, that you and I may be mutually encouraged by each other’s faith.” - Romans 1 : 10-12